Tough Day

When a pediatric doctor tells you that, if you fall to the floor when he/she is trying to resuscitate your child, they are just going to shove you aside, there may be cause for worry. That’s what they said to me and Paul before they re-intubated Hana this afternoon. Fortunately, there was no need for resuscitation.

Hana is resting well after the afternoon’s drama. She woke in the evening and cried – or tried to, it makes no sound when a breathing tube is involved. This breaks my heart. I’m feeling some thirst for personal touch, after going so many days without holding my baby. I just want to hold her. For now, I try to lean over her bed and try to get a hand on her – maybe that’s more for my comfort than hers. I love that baby.

Here is a quote my sister sent my mom by the Venerable Solanus Casey, a Capuchin friar and priest:
“Do not pray for easy lives; pray to be stronger people.
Do not pray for tasks equal to your powers; pray for powers equal to your tasks.”

Here is a picture of Hana in December:


3 thoughts on “Tough Day

  1. I check in everyday to see how Hana is doing. I wish there was something I could do to help. Last night, as I lay in bed thinking about all the hours Hana is laying down, I thought about what my kids liked at 6 months that maybe she could enjoy in bed.
    There is a DVD series called “Baby Signing Time”. It’s wonderful and engaging and age appropriate. If you have access to an smartphone or iPad near Hana – and she is awake and wants entertainment, youtube it. Cute songs (and it’s educational!). Maybe it’ll be a little distraction for her? And if you need the actual DVD – just say the word and I’ll send it.
    Laurie Robbins Leal


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