Today started out great! We had a happy baby with lots of smiles! But she got really cranky as the day went on. She threw up a little, not too much. Paul spent the night with Hana in her room. I still got up every hour to get feeds ready, give medications, etc. but I felt like I got a lot more sleep than any of the other nights. I am still really, really tired. I’m so tired I can barely put sentences together to write this. But one good thing about today was I got a glimpse at how life might be like if Hana is not so cranky and that looks like a life where I could manage things by myself again. But Hana is obviously not ready for me to handle things on my own again. I don’t know if it is teething or gas or the MMR vaccine or something else, but she really turned into a stinker pot late in the day. For the record, I love that she is a stinker pot.
My mom leaves tomorrow! I can’t believe it! She has been so amazing to have here. It helps that she is a pediatric nurse and a good portion of her career included working in the Pediatric ICU. She is so great at jumping right in and finding what needs to get done. It also helps that she loves Hana so much and is deeply invested in her well being. We will certainly miss her.
Thank you for reading. Thank you for supporting us. Thank you for your thoughts and prayers. I am so tired now, good night!