Getting Admitted

I wanted to call this post heartsick, because that’s how I feel. But this is about Hana’s heart, not mine. Hana seems back to normal. She was asking for milk and food! Her fever seems mostly gone but her respiration rate is intermittently high in the 70s or 80s. They decided to admit her to 3 West, where we stayed for so many months (in the first room she had there after her Berlin Heart). They want to observe her for a while with the fast respiration rate. Her ultrasound and chest X-ray all came back okay.

Hopefully it will just be an overnight stay and we will get to go back to RMH soon.

I am heartsick because a fellow heart mom lost her four-year old boy today. I got to know the mom at the RMH. Her son seemed to go downhill quickly. They tried surgery and implantation of a VAD (ventricular assist device) like Hana had (but a different, much smaller one). He didn’t make it out of surgery. I am so shocked and saddened and heartbroken for his parents. It causes a tremor in my soul. I can only imagine what it does to his parents’ souls. 

Here is the loving kindness meditation – for Sebastian’s family.

May Sebastian’s family be wrapped in a blanket of love and tenderness.
May they be held and rocked in their grief.
May their memories and stories be heard as sacred.
May their child’s life force bless the world with each sunrise.
In time, may their hearts be healed and at peace.

Goodbye sweet Sebastian.