Hana had a pretty good night. I went in her room around 4am and sat with her. She had awoken before my arrival and I stayed until she was settled again. This morning she was calm and restful until mid-morning when she would thrash a bit and cry her silent cries. A silently crying baby is difficult to witness, especially when there is very little you can do for them. I tell her softly, “I hear you.” So, hopefully she gets the sense that her cries, her pain or discomfort, are being acknowledged, that she is loved and cared for and that we are doing all we can for her.
After rounds the report is: her heart rate is low (high 80’s to low 90’s) but she is tolerating it well. Her profusion is good. Her exam was as good as on Monday. They will do a CT scan of her heart and head around 1pm. They will attempt to take her breathing tube out again tomorrow.
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Here is Hana this morning covered by a blanket I’ve been stuffing in my shift while I sleep so that it smells like me.